I'm Already Breaking My Promise Not to Whine
I'm scared. The pediatrician assures us that she just wants to rule it out.
Tomorrow we are going in for an Upper GI to rule out pyloric stenosis.
We.
Actually we aren't. But my poor baby is.
She's hurting and I don't know what to do. She's getting worse.
I know it's just an X-Ray. But ruling out pyloric stenosis, which is treated with surgery, scares me. She'd be in the hospital overnight, not here at home where she belongs. Somebody else would be taking care of her.
If it's ruled out then we're going to try Prevacid. And if that doesn't work, the doctor suggested not breastfeeding and switching to formula.
It felt like she punched me when she said that. And it's not that formula is bad.
I could be causing her pain. Which I already knew. It's just different when a doctor suggests you stop breastfeeding. I don't want to stop. I'll feel like I've failed her and myself.
I shouldn't be worried about things beyond tomorrow.
I'm not wired that way.
I just want her well. I want her to stop crying. I don't want her hurting anymore.
Updates later. Hopefully good updates. Hopefully. Keep your fingers crossed or pray, whatever it is you do.
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Try to think of it this way...if that IS what the issue is...then you KNOW and you can make it all better now.
*hugs*
Thinking of you guys.
We had a scare w/ our baby in this issue, too. He was around 4 weeks old and doing the projectile vomitting. The dr said if it continued over the next few dsys, we'd screen for the poly stenosis. I balled like a baby.
And similar to you, the ped. wanted me to stop nursing. I was very surprised by that. I thought "if he can't handle breastmilk, which is super easy to digest, what makes you think FORMULA would be better?". I wound up finding out another cause and working on it on my own. My ds does have a Zantax Rx, but I haven't given it to him in a while.
Turned out I had major let-down and oversupply, which was hurting him. Thankfully I found good advice on kellymom.com and LLL.
I will say a prayer for your little one, and for your peace of mind, too. And like someone already said, worst case, she has it, and at least it'll be a quick remedy. And she'll be too little to remember it.
Hang in there!
just like sharon i too had an overactive letdown and a baby on zantac, and quite frankly nothing worked....except time. you are NOT FAILING HER, trust your instincts and do what you need to do...nothing wrong with a second opinion from antoher dr. either..possibly a breastfeeing friendly one ? you guys are in myprayers.
I pray with my fingers crossed. I'll be doing it double time for you.
I totally understand your feelings about the breastfeeding.
I'll be thinking about you.
My first, Cordy, had GERD and took both Prevacid and Zantac for it. The Zantac was worthless, but the Prevacid helped a little. She was also colicky, and while the Prevacid helped with spitting up, it didn't do much for her crying. She was just an unhappy baby until about 4 months old.
I know that's not something to look forward to, but it would be better than anything needing surgery, right?
I can't remember - have you tried cutting foods out of your diet? I had to cut out dairy, and it seems to be helping my fussy Mira.
Your family will be in my prayers.
I'm sorry.
I had a very colicky baby...when she was older, she was diagnosed with multiple food allergies (rice, oats, strawberries, beef).
I hope the doctors get it figured out quickly!!!
You and Shel are in my thoughts. I'll be anxiously waiting to hear how everything goes tomorrow. I hope you get some answers SOON.
Oh, I'm so sorry that you and Shel have to go through that. When Logan had a milk scan done for his GERD, it was awful. I felt really guilty feeling sorry for myself during the test...until a nurse reminded me that it's always worse on the parents...babies don't remember it ever happening. Please keep that in mind.
I hope everything goes well. I know what it's like to go through what you are going through now. It was less than a year ago when I was in the same situation.
I will be crossing my fingers, toes, eyes...whatever I can cross. I hope to hear good news soon...but no matter what, remember you won't be going through anything alone. You have so many bloggy friends that are here for you...including me.
Doc wanted me to stop nursing one of my twins who had reflux, too! I could NOT figure out why formula would be better. He kept insisting we could put cereal in it and that would help her. The Zantac did help her but we kept nursing. We learned many different things...postioning immediately after feeding, sleeping with a wedge under her mattress to elevate her head, things about my milk coming out too quickly for her, etc. It helped.
I'm so sorry Jen. I'll keep you and Shel and the rest of the family in my thoughts and prayers. I know the anxiety of not knowing what is wrong with your child and not being able to fix it. Hopefully an answer will be found soon.
I had to give up nursing my youngest baby (now a healthy, bouncing 9 month old, but he didn't start out that way) and he spent five nights in the hospital. While the causes were different, I know exactly what you mean that you feel like she "punched" you with that news.
I hope that they are able to swiftly and conclusively determine what's causing the pain and that it can all be fixed ASAP. Crossing my fingers AND praying...
I went through this very same thing seven years ago with my daughter. The x-ray thing is not as awful as I thought it would be (it's pretty quick) and hopefully they won't find pyloric stenosis. My daughter was put on Zantac and it made a tremendous difference.
FWIW, I don't suggest you stop nursing unless you're absolutely certain that it's your milk that's the problem, which is very unlikely. They had me do that and when they finally figured out that it wasn't ME that was the problem, my milk was almost dried up and we had to stay on formula.
And don't let them tell you that rice cereal is the holy grail of acid reflux either because it's not. We put it in my daughter's formula and she pooped blood because of it. Use it very sparingly.
I'm crossing all my digits for both of you and sending good vibes for a quick and easy solution :)
Aw, so sorry, Jen. I too shall be keeping my fingers crossed for good news.
I'm really surprised the doctor would suggest not nursing. I've had to cut out all dairy and soy, down to the ingredients of things, in order to keep nursing. But my son wouldn't drink the formula he was allowed anyways because it was so bitter. I make mistakes, and things aren't always perfect, but the change we saw once I cut my diet was incredible!
Good luck.
I have contacted my local LLL representatives several times about minor issues. They have been wonderful - I'd encourage you to get a phone number of someone in your area and call - they are bound to have come across someone to whom this has happened before.
I understand your feelings on breastfeeding, and wouldn't want to stop either - and I understand that at the same time, you don't want to be causing more harm than good - but as the others have said - a chat with a breastfeeding advocate may flush out some strategies to help going forward.
I know what it's like to watch your baby x-rayed, and that in itself is not too bad I promise - but it's not nice watching them go through tests of any sort.
Thinking of you.
Prayers for you and Shel!
OK I've been out o the loop for a while...I've been sicky.
I hope little girl is all better soon. My stinks had colic for months and the only thing that helped whas changing her formula.
From a mother who couldn't breastfeed and was devastated by the lack of "mothering" I was giving my child...plus a huge case of postpartum...I understand. I really do. You are not doing wrong by your daughter if you can not breast feed. She needs to eat and strive and grow...if formula will help her, than so be it. I know it's hard. I know. I know how you are feeling about it...I felt like a huge failure and my kid wasn't even a month old yet...
But, The formula and some other helpful add ons..quieted my very loud and crying child...
I know it is hard. But if it will help. That is the path you must take.
I send you hugs and prayers and all the stuff you need...I wish I was there to hug you.
It's not whining if it's because you're worried (for good reason) about your baby.
Happy, good wishes and healthy vibes go out to you. Keep us posted.
Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry she's hurting and I'm sorry you're scared and I'm sorry you all have to go through this.
I hope whatever it is is a simple fix and that you can all find relief.
Good thoughts coming your way.
Good thoughts...good thoughts....
OMG...calling you RIGHT now!
I'll have you both in my thoughts and hope it's not anything bad or requiring surgery.
Regarding the breastfeeding as being a cause, I know that all too well (as does my sister). My 3 months preemie was on breastmilk for the first 4 months of his life. Finally I couldn't maintain and he couldn't latch so we had to switch to formula. I was so... hurt... when I realized (instantly) that the formula worked so much better for his digestion. He instantly transformed into a much happier baby. #2 was full term but also had latch problems so I pumped again for him. He got one month before the downfall and, again, the instant I switched to formula... the hurt... the guilt... the frustration.
I found out my sister, with her son, had a similar situation when she had to switch him to formula. Knowing that it wasn't just me helped. Some babies just don't do as well on breastmilk. Yes they miss out on so much but if that's what they need...
I hope, for you two, that whatever the solution is you can face it together, with lots of love.
Fingers, toes, arms crossed for you and baby girl. Keep us updated!
Sorry you and the babe are going through this. Keeping you all in my thoughts, and hoping for the outcome that erases Shel's pain.
My thoughts are with you today.
Heather S.
I'm a little behind the times still (courtesy of a vacation), but I wanted to let you know I've said a prayer for poor Shel + parents.
Did they tell you barium makes ghost poopies? Just warning you. Scared the hell out of me.
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